Cared too much to fail, so I froze.

That’s why, when my parents said NO to me and my intention to attend to music school, sadly, I now realize, I was kind of relieved.

You’ll see, that way, there was NO CHANCE that I would fail at being a musician, something I cared too deeply.

It is kind of refraining yourself of talking to that girl you like so much, so you avoid being rejected.

Of course, the downside is you live your life thinking what would have happened I you would have pursued your dream. Please don’t do that. Just don’t.